Open Letter to Kanye West: It’s Over

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Dear Kanye,

There comes a time in every woman’s life when she must admit that her dreams will never be realized. That time has come in my life with my hopes for you.

Since before most people had ever even heard of a name like “Kanye”,  I supported you. I just knew you were going to be a huge star and had talent beyond measure. I delved into the world of Kanye, learning all about this unique, charmingly irresistible individual. For years, I lived and breathed Kanye West.

Despite some bumps along the road, I never once doubted that you were a sincere and kind person. When others accused you of arrogance, I was assured that you were simply confident, yet not overly so. When others were annoyed by your temper tantrums and outbursts, I thought “how passionate and human.”

So when tragedy struck  — your mother passed, I knew it would be hard for you. You were so close to your mother; she was your best friend and greatest supporter. So when you began to act out of character, quite unlike the Kanye I’d known and loved, I excused it. Everyone deals with grief in their own way.  I hoped and wished you’d get better in time.

But you didn’t.

And it seems you never will — You are solidly the new Kanye. The new Kanye that is all about money, image, clothes, and women. The new Kanye who sells $6,000 shoes and is associated with a new woman every week. The new Kanye who thinks it’s perfectly okay to trash talk ex-girlfriends and bring them to tears.

And if that’s who you have decided you want to be, I have to accept that. I can no longer wish, dream, and hope that some day you will come to your senses and start making music that matters, start doing things that matter.  So, I’ll just have to give up my “Kanye’s #1 Fan” cap. There is no longer the Kanye I adored. It’s like you passed away.

I’ll always remember you though — the old you. I’ll still listen to your old music and reminisce, remembering the times when Kanye West was more than just another made for TV rapper.  It may take some time for my knee jerk reaction to defend you to subside to defend you. But it will in time, because all I have now are memories… It’s over.

Solemnly signed,

alee

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35 thoughts on “Open Letter to Kanye West: It’s Over

  1. I like some of Kanye’s music but I wouldn’t call myself a super-fan. When him and Jay-Z came to Toronto, I felt like the only person who was NOT interested in getting tickets to their concert. People were going nuts.

    Also, cause I’m not much of a fan, I haven’t followed gossip closely about him, but I have retained a very strong impression of him as a temperamental, showy and unstable individual. A lot of that is due to his public outbursts. I don’t know what he’s been saying about women but considering this man comes from a middle-class background and was supposedly close to an educated, striving mother, his companions of choice strike me as odd. But then again, he is a rapper.

    I find that I really don’t wish to know too many personal details about entertainers and creative people cause it does affect my perception of them and does taint my view of their output.

    What was the final straw for you, Alee?

  2. Alee, I felt like how you have a while ago, and this post bought that out beautifully. I liked Kanye; I loved his style, and his artistry (doesn’t hurt that he’s from my home city!). Now, I don’t care much, and unfortunately…”Monster” did me in. I believe he’s a great artist, but he definitely isn’t the artist I admired in the past.

  3. Sophia,

    “When him and Jay-Z came to Toronto, I felt like the only person who was NOT interested in getting tickets to their concert. People were going nuts.”

    Lol, I would be too! Jay-Z and Kanye West is like the ultimate duo. Although I have to say I always thought Jay-Z was a better rapper. He’s one of the best, for sure.

    “I have retained a very strong impression of him as a temperamental, showy and unstable individual.”

    I guess you could say that. 😛 But I always thought there was so much more to him than that and people were being unfair to him.

    “I don’t know what he’s been saying about women”

    Just mostly about his ex Amber Rose. Not that I’m especially a fan of hers, but still. She explains (and cries) a bit about it here, from 0:45 to the end.

    “What was the final straw for you, Alee?”

    His whole new attitude towards life. It’s just so… shallow. Empty. Idiotic. He’s only concerned with wearing nice clothes, traveling around to fashion shows, partying, and looking at women. When I saw and listened (very briefly) to My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy and heard he has some special thing for Kim Kardashian, I knew he’d gone off the deep end.

    “considering this man comes from a middle-class background and was supposedly close to an educated, striving mother, his companions of choice strike me as odd.”

    Exactly. Both his parents are highly educated; his mother was an English professor. He lived comfortably, with traditionally upright morals.

    But I guess he wants to fit in with the “cool kids”. He reminds me of those kids in high school who changed their whole persona so they could be accepted by a certain crowd. I always got the strong sense that he wished to be loved by other people, and took criticism and rejection very hard. But it’s ashame, really. He had so much potential.

    “I find that I really don’t wish to know too many personal details about entertainers and creative people cause it does affect my perception of them”

    Right, sometimes I just try to avoid knowing. But I couldn’t avoid him; people know I loved Kanye so they’d always update me on his life.

    It’s funny because he’d always said he’d never change. In the beginning of Never Let Me Down” (ft. Jay-Z, best song ever) he says “Yeah Grandmama/Told you I won’t let you down/Told you I won’t let this rap game change me, right?”… So much for that. Grandmama and mama (and Alee) are very let down. 😦

  4. Hi Natasha! Nice to know a former Kanye fan. You understand how I feel…

    “I liked Kanye; I loved his style, and his artistry (doesn’t hurt that he’s from my home city!).”

    You’re from Chicago? Yay! I like Chicagoans (except D. Wade). 🙂

    “Now, I don’t care much, and unfortunately…”Monster” did me in.’

    Monster who? Lol.

    I’ve never listened to that song in full and have no desire to. To be honest, I haven’t listened to a lot of his stuff post-808s & Heartbreak, and I barely listen to that, although I have a couple of copies of the album (courtesy of those who kindly, yet wrongly, thought it would make the perfect Christmas gift for me).

    Of course I love Watch the Throne, but that’s 75 percent because of Jay-Z. Kanye’s music stopped being appealing circa Graduation/2007.

  5. It’s probably for the best Alee. He would only like you because of your skin, look at his dating history!

    Just say no to rappers Alee.

    Oh and I do have a dislike of people trying to be all Ghetto/Kasi/Tsotsi whatever the word is when you come from a nice family with money. Seriously. Kanye did not need to be like that. I think he was shallow from the start. His mother might have kept it in check but now he’s off the leash.

    Why is Amber Rose wearing a animal on her head? I can appreciate a nice fur, I got a coat myself but really that is just weird and inside? People are just more stylish over here.

  6. Grace,

    “It’s probably for the best Alee.”

    *cries on your shoulder*

    “Just say no to rappers Alee.”

    I’ll say no to them, but not their music. Sorry, I’m a music fiend.

    “I think he was shallow from the start. His mother might have kept it in check but now he’s off the leash.”

    Maybe so, maybe so. I certainly think he had a bit of shallowness in him, but don’t all public figures.

    “Why is Amber Rose wearing a animal on her head?”

    LOL. I knew someone would comment on that. I meant to add, “Don’t mind the animal on her head”, but I forgot. 😛

    That’s just her style: Amber is herself.

  7. Since I know next to nothing about Kanye, I can’t really offer any meaningful comment here. But people change, and fame does this to many people. It sucks a big time, but I guess what separates a true fan from a blind follower from is criticism. If you see they’re doing it wrong, just acknowledge it.

    I might be bitter, but I do think fame corrupts most people.

  8. Mira,

    “I might be bitter, but I do think fame corrupts most people.”

    Why are you bitter?

    I agree fame changes some people. I guess I just hoped he’d be strong enough to resist falling into the cliche of a rapper.

  9. … Because being constantly cynical isn’t a good thing?

    I don’t know if I appear as such in these blogs, but I am overly cynical to the point of bitterness. I don’t direct my frustration at regular people, but I hate the police, the government, media personalities, politicians, emos, chick lit authors, fake moralizers to name a few. So to me, a celebrity changing because of the fame is: “well, duh! It goes without saying!” for me.

    At the same time, this attitude is hypocritical, because unlike many people who criticize celebrities I do, in fact, invest myself in movies and music and I do respect certain famous people’s work. (Not the politicians or chick lit authors, though).

    Since I know nothing about Kanye and I’m not emotionally invested in his work, this seems to em like a typical case of a guy who started out great but once he smelled the money/fame he changed into something else. It happens to a lot of people. I guess it’s horrible to see it happening to someone who you respect(ed) or who seemed like a different kind of a guy.

  10. Miss Alee,
    I have no feeling about Brotha West, but I love the way you F-E-E-L music. I hope you play some instrument or sing.

  11. Sherry,

    I don’t play any instrument, though I do sing and rap sometimes. I don’t how good I am at these, however. 😉

  12. I think once a person gets to a certain age, their musical taste is set and mostly everything new is “garbage” to them, or conversely, they become a little maturer and get clarity about certain types of music themselves.

    I listened to my cousin, who just hit 30, talk about his disappointment in a rap called “Ni**az in Paris” and the ignorance of putting out a title like that, especially by someone who really ought to know better. I know Jay-Z gets a lot of accolades and such but I dislike him intensely. I wasn’t much of a fan to begin with but my dislike started when I saw that video of him hitting a woman, which he dismissed, plus dude has a very unsavory predatory past, plus his nasally voice is off-putting and his songs encapsulate a lot of the bs I mention below.

    I’ve noticed that myself, my siblings, friends and cousins have stopped listening to a lot of hip hop and rap over the past decade or so and a lot of it is due to the ugliness, misogyny, self-hatred and pure mental slavery expressed in those songs. I know there is underground “conscious” hip hop that isn’t vile but I rarely listen or seek out any kind of music that is “underground” so that isn’t much of an option.

    Not listening to hip hop/rap by my social circles was not an actual conscious decision, but very gradual. We stick to old school songs which were more conscious, playful and not as ugly.

    I initially thought Kanye and groups like Outkast were a change from the ugliness (I like a lot of their songs) but Kanye seems to be going through some problems and I don’t want to find out anything bad about Outkast!

    In addition to a lot of hip hop, including all of Jay-Z’s oeuvre, I stopped watching Polanski’s movies and stopped listening to R Kelly. I listen to Lauren Hill cause she is only hurting herself but I do shake my head when I listed to “That Thing”.

  13. Grace,

    “Seriously you got to dig out one of those raps. I very much like to hear them.”

    Even if I could, they are on cassette tapes (yeah, they’re that old, lol). So I wouldn’t even know how to convert them to an internet-friendly format, besides just second-hand recording.

  14. Sophia,

    ‘I listened to my cousin, who just hit 30, talk about his disappointment in a rap called “Ni**az in Paris” and the ignorance of putting out a title like that’

    Love that song. LOL. 🙂

    I never call it that though, I call it by its other (and more relevant) title: “Ball So Hard”. You know, I know the song is ignorant and really has no purpose. I definitely do. But I guess with some rap I’m not looking for the song to have a great meaning. I just pay attention to the lyrical flow, word play, beats.

    Now Kanye did have good beats, flow, etc in his songs, and his songs talked about important social issues. Not anymore, however.

    With some very ignorant songs (or people), I just can’t “tune out” the ignorance though (e.g. R. Kelly). But swear words don’t bother me (as much), and I see them as just words. Once a person asked me how I listen to Jay-Z with all his “f*cks” and “n*ggas” and I was like, “???” I was so confused; I really hadn’t noticed until they told me how much he uses certain swear words. His voice is very steady and non-aggressive, so few words seem jarring to me.

    “I know Jay-Z gets a lot of accolades and such but I dislike him intensely.”

    Hah, I feel like the only BWE supporter who doesn’t hate him.

  15. It’s all good 🙂 I can see why people like some of the songs, i.e. catchy tunes, etc.
    I never saw the need for people to walk in lockstep on all issues, which I’m finding is cause for tension in the BWE sphere lately. My attitude is more laissez-faire. However, I will say that my dislike of Jay-Z and a lot of hip hop/rap predates my interest in BWE.

  16. Yeah, it was a wrap when his Mother died. He completely went off the deep end, and became this overgrown toddler minus the innocence. As a die- hard fan, you held on for as long as you could, so I salute you.

  17. Sophia,

    “However, I will say that my dislike of Jay-Z and a lot of hip hop/rap predates my interest in BWE.”

    Oh, I figured. I think that’s probably one issue the BWE supporters did not have to discuss to come to a conclusion on. 😛

    madamesiamese,

    “Yeah, it was a wrap when his Mother died. He completely went off the deep end, and became this overgrown toddler minus the innocence.”

    Yup, that’s a good way to describe what happened.

    “As a die- hard fan, you held on for as long as you could, so I salute you.”

    Yes, I tried to explain and excuse it for as long as I could. I really did. I give people a lot of chances. But ultimately I had to just admit to myself that he will never be the same person again.

  18. It’s so sad Alee, I used to be a fan as well because I thought he was really about something. All he has done is join the ranks of the other mindless celebs who serve no real purpose other than to serve themselves. Then they feed us (the masses) a mirage of ish that doesn’t even matter…smdh!

    Farewell Kanye!

  19. Nikisha,

    “It’s so sad Alee, I used to be a fan as well because I thought he was really about something. All he has done is join the ranks of the other mindless celebs who serve no real purpose other than to serve themselves.”

    Precisely. It’s quite sad, really, it is. I don’t know if he realizes how many people he’s disappointed.

  20. ^Apparently.

    Maybe when he loses all of his fans, he’ll start to. A celebrity is only as significant as the people who pay attention to them.

  21. You stir my passion for love and sprinkle me with tiny drops lust; I forgive every tiny indiscretion and remain forever you faithful fan! Love you mange west!!! 🙂

  22. Kanye west; no matter what ; I remain your faithful fan! You give me those Picture post card days, ……. you know…the ones with those crisp solid blue skies ¡ :))

  23. ^Well, at least someone still likes him. When all you’ve got left is Kim Kardashian, you know you’re in trouble.

  24. I think that if she makes him happy, then she is my girl, so stay away from my best boy and stop bashing him. I love the way has that cool romantic look always like a masculine Mona Lisa smile, and to be quite honest with you I am a bit jealous of Kim Kardashian. She is one lucky girl…I only hope that she realizes that…any way as I said, I forgive him his many short comings and that is because he is MY BEST BOY!!!!! Love You Kanye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  25. “I think that if she makes him happy, then she is my girl, so stay away from my best boy and stop bashing him.”

    Okay, whatever. You remind me of the old me, possibly more fanatical. Lol. But you’ll get tired of him sooner or later.

  26. Aha but my loyalty is stronger….
    I have accepted Kim kardasian as one who totes a useful piece of unpleasant luggage…if that is not love for kanye what is ? I hope he gets the rid of her fast ….but I would never wish that if it might make him unhappy. Just looking at him makes my heart to beat at an unnatural rhythm and I am elated!….and contented to love in the distance and to listen his soul, his music is my holy communion! !!!:)

  27. Did you see the South park episode.. We watched it yesterday and it was hilarious!

    Kanye’s ego is so big that he does these mental gymnastics to make everything be about him. Quite hilarious with the gay fish song at the end.

    If you haven’t heard the song it’s this one!

    Plus it’s hilarious when people troll him in life.”Are you a gay fish, Kanye? I know you like fish dicks Kanye..”

  28. I’m sorry Nko, but Kanye is obviously not a fish! He may enjoy fish sticks though.

  29. Nkosazana,

    “Did you see the South park episode.. We watched it yesterday and it was hilarious!”

    No…

    I’m hardly a fan of Kanye’s anymore, but I still can’t get with people always saying he’s gay. Even if he were, so? Frank Ocean is gay and I don’t see people giving him nearly as much grief about it (although if the rumors about his run-in with Chris Brown’s entourage are correct, I might be wrong on that…).

    I’ll admit fishdicks is a great play on words.

  30. Well Kanye feel kinda hurt over the whole thing. I read the wiki of the episode apparently they ran the episode 4 times in a row after the whole Taylor Swift.

    “West wrote on his blog, “South Park murdered me last night and it’s pretty damn funny. It hurts my feelings but what can you expect from South Park!” West thanked the South Park writers in his blog entry and acknowledged he has a problem with his ego, but said he was trying to change. Parker and Stone said they were extremely surprised by West’s reaction, and felt Mencia was treated far more harshly in the episode than West Parker said, “It was like, dude, we just said you were a gay fish. What are you talking about? It was so dumb.””

    It is good Alee that you’re with Froggie! He got a sense of humor! 🙂

    Being gay fish is not partially funny or offensive it’s just when it’s about Kanye West it becomes funny! People like it when people like Kanye West gets a few jabs at him just because he’s as Obama called him a “Jackass”.

    http://www.southparkstudios.com/full-episodes/s13e05-fishsticks

    Here you go! I know Froggie got a good sense of humour. I know he will appreciate it. Froggie go and watch it with Alee and report back!

  31. Nkosazana,

    “Well Kanye feel kinda hurt over the whole thing”

    He feels hurt about most things.

    I think Taylor is more tough than people would assume. She seems sensitive but strong.

    Froggie has humor for the both of, yes. I was surprised he is as serious as he is here.

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